Hello everyone! I'm just about better from my surgery. It was pretty easy I must say, I was oly down for 2 days!! And just think I get to do it all over again in a couple of weeks. Cassidy's out of school and with her dad for his month. I miss her like crazy! It always seems like shes out playing or something when shes gone. The boys are doing great and are as crazy as ever. Maddox is always is an alternate universe (must be nice) and Loukis never runs out of energy. hope all is well with everyone! I will post pictures soon.

Hello everyone!!! I'm back on the blog band wagon. Loukis is getting so big! Well they are all getting big. Cassidy is a total teenager now and enjoying 5th grade. We joined the girl scouts and I sighned up to be a leader (I'm carazy) and I'm the room mom for Cassidy's class this year. Maddox is hell on wheels these days. He put on cassidy's swim suit the other day and ran around the house with goggles on saying in a high voice " I'm Ayla and I'm going swimming." Loukis is soooo fat and cuddley, and he loves that boobie!! I'm at a new place in my life as well I'm learning to take charge of my own life. I have been trying to get my life organized for so long and nothing seems to stick!! I haven't figured it all out but I will get there. Today I made a play area for the boys down stairs and it looks great. Hopfully pretty soon my whole house will be together and I won't have to stress about it anymore. For along time I have felt like I'm not worth haveing nice stuff and that maybe this crap is the life I'm supposed to have and that I couldn't do any better. But I don't feel like that now I feel like so what if we are poor and so what if there are things about myself and my life that are bad. It sounds so dumb but I feel like I can finally just do it!! And maybe I am ok just the way I am. I have let things pull me down for too long and now I feel ready to fight for my own happieness. I haven't felt inspired to paint or be creative in along time and lately that side of me is coming back. \i have also realized that I isolated my self from my friends and for me my friends are very important. Friday night I went to Mary's house to visit for the first time in along time, I was able to just be myself and let loose. It felt soo good!! Anyway here are some pictures for everyone. I love you all.

Counting Down!!!!

I'm almost there!!!!! June 5th is coming soon and yet it feels like it will never g et here!! I talked with mom last night at family night and she said Mandi is just as miserable as me. Poor Mandi!!!!!! I heard she has a twisted anckle. I don't know if I could deal with that it's hard enough getting around with two anckles that work. I feel ya sister! Aaron has been helping me alot lately and I;m so glad I am having a hard time doing most things these days. Mimi is coming after the baby for the wedding and to help me which will be great. Maddox fell down the stairs last week. It was terrible. There was blood every where and we had to ride in the ambulance to the hospital and everything. He is fine now after cat scans and head staples but it was scary to say the least. He was so tuff and everyone was commenting on how good he was. He didn't even cry when they put the staples in (nothing to numb him).

dont know if this pic came up. i copied it from another blog super cool yard!!

Hello everyone!! I haven't blogged in along time!! There isn't too much to tell. My belly is getting BIG and so are my nose and lips(i'm sure dad will be posting ugly pictures of me soon so don't worry). It seems like there would be more to tell. CPS is looking into Cassidy's dad but I think everyone knows that. It looks like they aren't going to do anything to him which really sucks. He gets away with everything I sware!! One day all of his crap will catch up to him I'm sure even if it's not like we all think it should karma has a way of coming back to you weather you like it or not. Aaron got a google phone with our upgrade and he loves that thing. I have to admit it is pretty sweet its like a mini laptop with gps and live street views. He is on that thing 24 hrs a day!!! Erin and I had family night with mom and dad yesterday. It was really fun the kids liked it alot and it was great spending time together with them. It's pretty cool having mom and dad so close now. They got to come to Casssidys concert at the aeros game and of course cassidy thought that was great.

Ok everyone I need to make a correction. His name is loukis Jeffrey. We are spelling it differently because aunt alice wanted louis and i like lukas so we put them together. I am feeling much better today Aaron is a great nurse. He took care of me all day yesterday and i got alot of rest. I was really suffering until i called my ob and she told me i can take ANY tylonol product not just the regular kind!!!!! Its amazing what a little cold and flu medicine will do for the spirit. Cassidy has alot of pretty big projects this year right now we are doing a black history month poster. She chose BB King of all people and she really seems to enjoy his music. I like helping her with this stuff. I didn't do many projects in school LOLOLOLOL!!!!!

Sick Kiddos!!

My kids got the crud this week. Well mainly Cassidy, she has been out of school all week long!! I am getting pretty round these days only 3 1/2 more months I can't belive this pregnancy has gone by so fast. Chris really wants Gavin and I think he is going to get his wish. We have pretty much decided on Loucis Jeffery VanDyken. It's as close as we could get to louis and still have dads name in there too I think its a pretty solid name.