Hello everyone!!! I'm back on the blog band wagon. Loukis is getting so big! Well they are all getting big. Cassidy is a total teenager now and enjoying 5th grade. We joined the girl scouts and I sighned up to be a leader (I'm carazy) and I'm the room mom for Cassidy's class this year. Maddox is hell on wheels these days. He put on cassidy's swim suit the other day and ran around the house with goggles on saying in a high voice " I'm Ayla and I'm going swimming." Loukis is soooo fat and cuddley, and he loves that boobie!! I'm at a new place in my life as well I'm learning to take charge of my own life. I have been trying to get my life organized for so long and nothing seems to stick!! I haven't figured it all out but I will get there. Today I made a play area for the boys down stairs and it looks great. Hopfully pretty soon my whole house will be together and I won't have to stress about it anymore. For along time I have felt like I'm not worth haveing nice stuff and that maybe this crap is the life I'm supposed to have and that I couldn't do any better. But I don't feel like that now I feel like so what if we are poor and so what if there are things about myself and my life that are bad. It sounds so dumb but I feel like I can finally just do it!! And maybe I am ok just the way I am. I have let things pull me down for too long and now I feel ready to fight for my own happieness. I haven't felt inspired to paint or be creative in along time and lately that side of me is coming back. \i have also realized that I isolated my self from my friends and for me my friends are very important. Friday night I went to Mary's house to visit for the first time in along time, I was able to just be myself and let loose. It felt soo good!! Anyway here are some pictures for everyone. I love you all.