Cassidy in California. The lady in the shorts is the crazy one that took us almost to Mexico!!!

The newest penis in the family!

This is baby Luna soon after she came out!!!!

This can't really be called my latest as I did it about 8 months ago but it's the last thing I did. I keep having visions of things I would like to paint or draw but I think I'm just not inspired!!!!!!!! A bit late!!!! This is our brude on halloween pretty stinking cute!

I have been havong a many artist visions lately!! I wish I had the gut to do it!!!! I want to make my house into a painting every room a different canvas. It would take alot of time and money but I keep thinking about it. Maybey a good way to let out the WILD WOMAN inside me. I have kept her locked away for a bit. :) The kids are watching a movie right now... ahhh free moment. Better not speak too soon someone might need me. Guess thats the nature of the beast they drive you crazy but as soon as they aren't there your lost. Wonderful wonderful motherhood wouldn't trade it.

UG!! I am having a morning. Had to beat Cassidy out of bed. Got yelled at for waking up the hubby (he has to work today). Puked in the kitchen sink and the kids have a doctors appointment that I wasn't planning on!! It's only 9:00 what is going to happen for the rest of the day! I made a new recipe last night and it was a hit. Its a take on apple butt chicken.

Pork Chops and Grown Up Apple Sauce

6 pork chops
2 granny smith apples
1 onion
2 cloves garlic
salt and pepper
drizzle of honey
dash of cinnimon
T balsamic viniger
T olive oil

Brown pork chops with viniger and oil salt and papper(this makes a nice caremelization). Set aside. In the same pan scrape up the bits from the chops and add onion garlic apple and a bit more oil. stir until golden. add honey and cinnimon. put the chops back in the pan on top of the apple mixter and add 1/4 cup of water simmer for about 20 mim.

"When one defines oneself as Pagan, it means she or he follows an earth or nature religion,one that sees the divine manifest in all creation.The cycles of nature are our holy days, the earth is our temple,its plants and creatures our partners and teachers.We worship a deity that is both male and female, a mother Goddess and father God,who together created all that is, was, or will be.We respect life, cherish the free will of sentient beings, and accept the sacredness of all creation."

So as everyone knows my spirituality is quite a bit different from just about everyone I know. I am not sure you guys understand what I belive so I have decided to share. I am Pagan. This means alot of things though, its an unbrella term just as Christianity is. Just as all Christians aren't the same (ex.. Catholics don't belive the same as Mormans even though they are both Christian). With in paganism there is Wicca, Shamanism, Santaria (this one is kind of a mix between Voodoo and Catholosism), Voodoo, and many others. I am a bit of a pagan mut. I do practice what would be considered witch craft but I am shamanistic too. I am also polytheistic. Witch craft most likely isn't what you think it is. Ok Ok let me back up. I belive that God is many, meaning that basically the forces/beings that rule the universe are not one all seeing thing. There are male and female Gods and Goddeses that are "incharge" of different parts or the universe. I do not think that there is one God and I also don't belive that we are being tested or judged by that god to determine our eternity. However I do belive in karmah. We are all on our own individual journy and we are constantly learning and absorbing for the "next step" wheather that means coming back after we die to try again or we move on to what ever the next step is and similarly to lds belifes I think that we will ultimatly become gods or godesses. I also feel that the earth is one of these Goddoses and that she is like our mother. Einstine said that humans and all of the earths inhabitants were like a flea on a dog. All feeding and living off of one larger animal. I feel the same way, though some of use are more like a flea and sucking and wasting the gift we have been given, I also feel that others are care givers like feeder fishe that clean larger fish and in return they get a free meal. There is great power within her and that is where witch craft comes in. We can if we are worthy, "tap" into her great energy along with god/godess and everything else around us, the stars, trees etc. That is basically what witch craft is and you can use it for your self as well as help others, just like praying but with more control for lack of a better word. To do this however is much different than just praying. Yuo first learn how to feel the energy of all things, even rocks have "energy" or majic that is why we use candels talismans and other things on our alter when we conduct a ritual. Certain things contain certain kinds of energy to heal or divinate or what ever. Physical items are also used as offerings to the gods and godesses not as you may think though. I don't lay out things in hopes they will be pleased and give me what i want. I offer things as a tactile thing to show my thanks and also my intent. Anyway there is much more. Just like you can't explain all of the bible in one essay I can't explain my belifes like that either. I love all of you and welcome your questions.

Any hoo back to my house. I am sooo happy that its on the way to lovely!! I still have the garage to tackle but it totally seems doable now that the inside of the house is clean. I finnaly feel good and pregnancy is great! Ive been busy busy in the back yard. After the hurricane all the hard work I had done was ruined. Then pregnancy came and i had zero energy or motivation. Now I feel good and I've been working like the little garden witch I am. I might evwen get Aaron to get in on it :). Life is finally starting to get better. Maybe Prozac (probably Prozac) but none the less I am starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel!!

My house is CLEAN!!!!!!!! It took a made and mom coming to whip me into shape but I now have a place for everything. It feels so good to not be overwhelmed. I've actually enjoed keeping my house clean its amazing how things work once you have a system. Mom also gave me a work book on keeping an organized house and its really cool.